• Chantel Matthews

Morning Pages

Updated: Jan 22

New year and for some reason, this year feels like it is going to be a year that will shift and change the dynamics of my whanau forever. My eldest turned 21 on the 16th January and no doubt will be leaving home when the opportunity presents itself. My little one will be 5 in march and going into school. My husband wants to change career and this will be our 10 year wedding anniversary. I will hopefully complete my masters and go on to teach as well as create my own studio/gallery space for indigenous artists. Maybe I will get a job... I do want to immerse myself in te reo māori which means more studies...

Spiritually and physically, I have started morning meditation. I am baking bread and attempting to make more food from scratch rather than store bought, aware of our footprint on packaging and processed food. Im leaning towards fish and vegetarian which feels good so far. I am exercising on average 3 times per week but enjoying walks along the beach more.

Mentally and emotionally, I have made it a goal to pull back from the amount of energy I put into friendships and others and only attending what is important. I am reassessing relationship, friendships and things that are no longer serving me. I am questioning social media and the role it plays in my life and its impact on my emotional and mental wellbeing. Things like comparisons, fomo, time, why and what for etc. Part of me wants to slip into a cave and sit in silence until the slate is wiped clean. 40's is a weird time. I feel old, too old and tired yet on the other hand, driven and inspired because there is so much to be done.

What has all this got to do with my art practice? Everything and Nothing.

Key words: meditation, walking, energy, te reo.